LJIDW-LPF Week 3 "Tsundoku" (having books but not reading them)

[daisysparrow]

 "Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous and I'm going to extremes..."

Hi, my name is Daisy and I hoard information. A couple of thousand ebooks that I haven't catalogued yet, so it's either pot luck or don't bother. I have perhaps three times that amount of recipes I have never made and probably never will (yes, I have had therapy about that). At least a couple of hundred sites on a blogroll that I hardly ever look at. I had the house to myself for a week recently and I managed to get the TiVo down to 84%. And I'm not even allowed to go on Pinterest any more...

It's a form of gluttony, I know. It crops up in a lot of areas in my life, from hoarding craft supplies (and patterns!) to getting so absorbed in a project that I loose all sense of perspective*, to the obvious, over-eating, which I have been working on minimising but have otherwise been doing for years. *Reference the time I was making crafty Christmas gifts -- token gifts, really, the kind you'd give as a thank you for a party invite -- and I gave my best friend a box of 12 of them. (And nothing else...)

I do go to extremes. I have had to accept this; it's hard. But there is one thing that makes it easier:

"When you're hurt, when you suffer, I'm your angel undercover"

Amongst everything else that I do full-speed, I also love extravagantly. Abundantly. Magnificently. To any potential future soul-mates who may be reading this, if you give me a little bit back (I do need that), then I will love you more than you ever thought possible. I will be your biggest champion, the bringer of the romance and the one who will make your life easier when I can. You will feel so great about choosing me! :-p You just need to be able to deal with all the extremes in every other area, too.

 

"You know you wouldn't want it any other way."

Comments

[bleodswean]

This is incredibly sweet! Almost like an exercise in self-evaluation. I can relate!

[daisysparrow]

Thank you

[bsgsix]

Hadn't thought about that song in years, and I'm glad you mentioned it. It helps my wayward memory, so thank you. :)

Otherwise, this was great, and I felt as though I could relate to it. I love how honest you are with these words.

[daisysparrow]

Aww, thanks :)

[sonreir]

Ah, I enjoyed this take on the topic...

I don't have a Pinterest account, for exactly this reason!

[daisysparrow]

Hahahaha, the struggle is real!

[divinemusings]

I do all of this too!

[daisysparrow]

Don't we all? B|

[song_of_thea]

This sounds suspiciously like my house and life as well.

[daisysparrow]

Yeah, I think we're all the same in that regard, at least amongst people who've found themselves reading this...

[static_abyss]

Your entry was very honest and personal and thank you for sharing that with us. I also very much liked your tags and your ending.

[daisysparrow]

Thank you, thank you

[bewize]

This sounds a lot like me. I have had to stop buying things for this reason. LOL.

[daisysparrow]

I admire your restraint, lol!

[tonithegreat]

Months have passed since I last crafted, but now it is Halloween so my living room is an explosion of costume stuff. My kids might have been happy with simpler costumes, but I do love a good sewing extravaganza! The sleep dep that comes with it, not so much. . . So I feel your pain! And also your manic craftiness.

[daisysparrow]

Hahaha! After years of choosing not to go to bed on time because I want to watch one more show or do one more thing on the internet, I have now actually given myself insomnia, that I couldn't sleep earlier even if I wanted to, so sleep dep is something of a foreign concept to me these days... good luck with all the costumes!

[the_eternal_overthinker]

Aww..<3 This lovely and who wouldn't love to have a friend like that! I like the way it's written. Good Job!

[daisysparrow]

Aww, thank you so much

[adoptedwriter]

I love that song...loud and full of feeling!

[daisysparrow]

Great for blasting away all the cobwebs sometimes!

[dmousey]

Being Bi-polar 1 with dissociative/psychosis, I get this! My last bad break episode was ten yrs. ago, now my meds keep me pretty sane (for the most part).

Just be careful of speedbumps. and unexpected potholes on your life's journey. Developing coping mechanisms (and collecting things is a coping or avoidance tactic) are a must. Thanks for sharing. 😊✌ ~~~d

[daisysparrow]

Thanks for reading :)

[rayaso]

This was excellent, but the end was very sweet. I hope someone loves you as extravagantly as you deserve.

[daisysparrow]

D'awww, thank you so much <3

[halfshellvenus]

The information hoarding all seems like a form of potential. Potential books to read! Potential recipes and crafts to make (some of them made, but there could be still MORE)!

Which is a kind of hope in itself, blending nicely with the second half. And as you've noted, not all excess is bad. :)

[nayanawrites]

You are so me !!! I loved it.

[daisysparrow]

thanks!

[daisysparrow]

Yes, indeed, thank you for noticing!

When I had the therapy about the recipes (well, about other stuff but that was kinda symptomatic of it and we mentioned it more than once), we drilled down to, I want a house full of friends, and I had unintentionally made a leap of logic, thinking that I needed to find ~the perfect recipe~ that would be the difference between "hey this was fun" and "that was amazing, how soon can I come back?!" So it wasn't really about the recipes at all. But about what they could potentially mean.